On the fence: anyone know what I'm talking about?

bdbgum · Post by **bdbgum** » 27 May 2008, 18:10

I'm doubting I'm doubting, always doubting.

I want to do more self-bondage, I want a Mistress, I want more of BDSM, I dream of it and it keeps me awake at night (well, sometimes).

But I still live at home and I cannot let my family know of it I am 100% positive they would not understand.

I keep telling myself I'll go to BDSM meeting in the country, but each time it arrives something gets in the way and I can't find good excuses to go. Or I'm afraid someone (with not so good intentions) will find out...

Sometimes I am frustrated because I can 'play' so seldom.

Sometimes I keep telling myself I would better give up the BDSM all around, but then I do a self-bondage again and it feels SO good and I'm back to square one...

I guess I will have to bear this while I am still living at home. But I wanted to ask other people if they've been between a rock and a hard place like this...

End of rant.

Post by **bound_jenny** » 27 May 2008, 21:16

It's more or less the same for everyone who has discovered bondage and similar pursuits prior to the age of majority - it's always a pain to keep it secret, but still satisfy one's needs.

Giving it up will not make it go away. It is a part of you, rooted deep inside. One day, it will show up again. You'll see someone tied up on TV and something clicks in your head, and the urge is back. As the Borg say, resistance is futile.

The best approach is patience. Wait until you are independent, then you can indulge in your fantasies to your heart's content, or at least to the limit imposed by everyday responsibilities.

Do not give up. Don't give in to despair. Make plans. Set a goal and go for it. Once you get there, you won't regret it.

Jenny.

bdbgum · Post by **bdbgum** » 27 May 2008, 22:12

Problem is I am adult/mature, it's just that I still live at home ATM.

Start to make certain plans and set goals sounds like a great tip though.

masoboy · Post by **masoboy** » 28 May 2008, 05:35

I'm in the same situation. It sucks, but I hope I'll just move out soon.

CristyCream · Post by **CristyCream** » 28 May 2008, 13:46

And as soon a you have your own place your kink habit will explode like a freight train hitting a soda can.

Your going to have to trust me on this. When I first moved out, I moved into my apartment a week early and lets just say had a week of “Sex- Capades”

stuy0000 · Post by **stuy0000** » 30 May 2008, 09:36

I was also in the same boat not long ago, i kept all my toys in a locked box under my bed and locked the door every time i played. im living with roomates now and they know what i do. its much easyer that way.

kopekobert · Post by **kopekobert** » 31 May 2008, 22:40

It adds a lot to the thrill, if the parents sleep in the room directly above and mother's sleep is very very light. She keeps asking every morning where the strange sounds came from... Best is to wait for parents on vacation.