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[KinkInSpace]

Hi there,
I'm a male and I am into bdsm and kink. I don't do cross-dressing, nor do I fantasize about becoming a girl, but wearing something I am not supposed to wear does turn me on. I do own a woman's bathing suit and have worn it under my clothes to give an example. Also it feels a bit like bondage for some odd reason.

For the past days, I've been reading a lot of the stories on here and that eventually have made me sign up and post one of my own fictional stories.

I found this website a long time ago, when I was searching into the self-bondage world. Awesome place and awesome practice this is. I'm not hugely experienced because I don't dare to take too great of risk. I usually have a way to get out or the bondage is not too strict.

In the past I've got myself a bondage-ice-timelock which when frozen will stick together for about an hour before the little ice has melt. I researched there are several, and this is the "friendly" version. Has little water in it, and no hole that drips to add torture to the session. (I'll hang an icecube if I want that).

I also like to inflict some mild pain to myself, but nothing that turns up into blood and I haven't dared to come to a situation where it hurt so badly that I was crying. Not even due to bondage. I own several chasity cages and two chasity belts, but they're "play belts" made of leather. I found one chasity cage that I can wear for a long time including sleeping in while not getting it off, and its the "Holy Trainer v2 small". I think the longest is over 2 weeks, but haven't kept track of this.

Besides me knowing about my kinky fantasies, not many people know it. One girl I met years ago I told her I was into bondage, and her reply was: "I'm not into bdsm, but it suits you." And here is my second place I'm opening up. I think this will help me to accept that I am who I am and maybe one day I dare to tell my parents. XD

Oh, I also do like butt plugs. After reading some stories, I got myself an electric buttplug that has the cable attached to it but to the sides so that I can sit on it comfortably, and got myself double locking hand cuffs. The idea was to try an actual bondage session with ice timelock, and have the keys fall down, then make me crawl to fetch the key to unlock it, while wearing a buttplug that keeps my anus under its electric power. I tried setting it up and prepare for the session, but was not able to move as I expected and when I saw more complications arise, I saw that I didn't had an hour left anymore before I had to leave, so I haven't yet done that session. I did shorten the session to just laying on my belly in bondage with the new cuffs on while my ass was tortured with electricity and that was great. XD

[ponylady]

welcome aboard, enjoy your stay & i see you already have been busy participating.

[bound_jenny]

Welcome to the forum!

Jenny.

[KinkInSpace]

Thanks. I definitely will enjoy my stay, thats for sure. I'm sorta bound to enjoy myself, coming to a forum that suits my interests so neatly. (See what I did there? XD)

[cdinbonds]

Welcome!

[KinkInSpace]

Oh my, I've been here for a year now...

I feel like I left an impact here and there. Maybe even some mental scars.

Good to still be here.

[bound_jenny]

Oh my, I've been here for a year now...

Happy anniversary!

I feel like I left an impact here and there. Maybe even some mental scars.

You've become a contributing member of Bound Anna. You've given advice, presented ideas, and I would even venture to say that compared to a year ago, you're more comfortable with your kink than you were, now that you know there are many, many more of us out there.

I'd say that's more like a mental tattoo than a scar.

Let's see many more anniversaries out of you.

Jenny.

[KinkInSpace]

Hahaha, very true Jenny!

Yeah, lets try and do the same for next year.

Hopefully I will get into a relationship where I can explore my kink much further than before, maybe I even dare to tell my parents?

[ponylady]

happy anniversary.

really glad to have you aboard.

[KinkInSpace]

Thanks Ponylady. Glad to be here.

[lj]

maybe I even dare to tell my parents?

Do you want to know about their sexuality ? probably not

they probably don't want to know about yours either...

[KinkInSpace]

The thing is, I actively hide it from them, and given that I live alone in my apartment, I can have toys laying around. Because they don't know, I don't allow anyone (including them) to come over unannounced because I have to clean up first.

They don't like it that they can't come over unannounced, and if they knew, it could change that.

For example, If I were to be naked, and inside a chastity cage that is too big to hide, I could open the door, tell them I need a minute to change before letting them in, change and then they can come in.

If I do that now, they will want to know why they are waiting and given that I don't want to lie nor create a fuss about it, I avoid the situation altogether.

[KinkInSpace]

I'm an active member for 3 years and a month or 2 now... My postcount would probably suggest I was a member far longer, but I joined at the end of 2015 actually.

But... All good things come to an end.

I've decided to move on. I will not remove all my posts (that would probably become a day job with 1400+ posts anyway), besides I know I've made valuable posts, and the many fictional stories I've written, I tend to read them from time to time anyway. I will probably come back for them in the future too.

So... what changed?

Well, Bound Anna did change. New members came with different interests than me, but more importantly, I have changed.

When I came to BoundAnna, I was still searching a lot for what I wanted and given that I am single and I love bondage, self-bondage is something I like, and this forum seemed to be a great place to start.

But as I get more and more into kink, I realize the bondage aspect is becoming less and less part of my cravings, and pain is becoming more and more part of my cravings. My recent posts reflect this change too.

But you see, I enjoy it far more to have to endure pain than to be bound. I like both, don't get me wrong here, but I far more often just put nipple clamps on while laying in bed watching some porn, than that I also take the time to do proper self-bondage. I used to do longer sessions of self-bondage and they were great, but it takes a lot of time to properly setup, where I get the same joy if I just put some estim on me, crank up the voltage and suffer for 10 to 15 minutes before I do other stuff again.

I'm also in chastity a lot now, which means my sexual mind is turned on far more than in the past. I'm no longer having a state where I'm not sexual active for a while then get cravings and decide its time to do another session. Instead I'm in that mindset quite a lot.

When I come to Bound-Anna nowadays to read up on the newest posts, most of the posts just don't hit my interest anymore. That doesn't mean all of you are at fault. It just means that I have changed and its time for me to move on.

I will not destroy/delete/etc my account here. In fact, for the upcoming days I will keep monitoring this topic for replies and maybe even drop a reply myself. In the future, if I have self-bondage cravings I may even return back here and become active again. I won't exclude that either.

Bytheway, this is not a sudden decision. I'm playing with this for quite some time now. Several months or more. I've started writing a fictional story about Peter who goes to stay at a BDSM hotel, and when I wrote that story I already had in mind that I might not be able to finish it, which is why I had written in an abort mid-way. It comes to no surprise that I've utilized that escape to finish the story. That way at least, the story is done, but with the footnote that maybe in the future if I become active again, I'll rewrite Day 4 and continue the story.

Farewell members of BoundAnna. This is a great forum. Maybe see you in the future, or maybe not.

- Slave_L

[bound_jenny]

It's always a sad time when a member leaves Bound Anna. It's like a member of the family leaving the nest.

But I am happy to see that we helped you along in your kink evolution, and helped you find yourself. The important thing is to be comfortable and happy with your life and your kink. Eroticism has many facets, and everyone has to find that one facet that fits them perfectly and makes them happy.

We'll keep the door open for you just in case you might drop in for dinner one day. I'll always have fresh-baked cookies on the table.

Be good, be kinky, and take care, my friend.

And don't be a stranger!

Jenny.

[KinkInSpace]

It's always a sad time when a member leaves Bound Anna. It's like a member of the family leaving the nest.

But I am happy to see that we helped you along in your kink evolution, and helped you find yourself. The important thing is to be comfortable and happy with your life and your kink. Eroticism has many facets, and everyone has to find that one facet that fits them perfectly and makes them happy.

We'll keep the door open for you just in case you might drop in for dinner one day. I'll always have fresh-baked cookies on the table.

Be good, be kinky, and take care, my friend.

And don't be a stranger!

Jenny.

Thank you Jenny. You will definitely be one of the persons I'll be missing. And although your whip strikes fiercely, it'll be missed as well.