Huge victory for me today!!!!
Until recently "needleplay" or needles were pretty big on my no list.
In fact, I never even considered this to be an option. I used to be very scared for needles when I was younger too.
But the more pain I can tolerate on my nipples, the more pain I was looking for. The average clamp doesn't do it for me, so my clamps are already more extreme being jagged and leaving marks afterwards. Occasionally I like to just push tacks in my nipples, but not to penetrate, just for that tip to slightly dig in so I feel pain. Tacks usually don't go in unless much force is applied and the skin is kept tight. If the skin is not tight, it usually just gives in and there is no penetration.
I used this principle to tape a tack onto my nipple a few times and occasionally press it as punishment.
True, its unavoidable that sometimes the tack will indeed go in. In the past, that was the moment where I stopped immediately to let it heal, but lately when that happened, I just kept going. It didn't happen much though. I've also looked for other sharp things to stick in, just the tip for the same kind of kick.
One thing I loved about when the tack actually penetrated, was that afterwards, when the wound was healing, I had the afterjoy of triggers of the nerves being fired as they were repaired.
Recently I needed an actual hypodermic needle so I could refill a small 15ml alcohol bottle I keep to disinfect wounds. I have a large bottle but its impratical to use, and the small flaccon works really well. I tried to just put the small one in the large one, squeeze it in and let the pressure suck the alcohol in, but that only worked for about half the bottle, and the second time, it didn't work at all, so with a needle I could easily spray it in. The opening was pretty small, only 0,4mm big, so I needed a small needle. The smallest one my sexshop has are 0,45mm by 12mm. Unfortunately the smallest batch is 100.
I first clicked it away, but it started to eat on me and I decided to get it anyway. Given it are 100, I started to look more into needleplay and decided I was going to try one and see how it went. If all else failed, it wasn't that expensive, but who knows... maybe I liked it?
When it all arrived, I started a session. My idea was to first put clamps on my nipples to make them get used to pain, then pierce them with 4 needles.
When I got to actually start the session, I was already very chickened. In fact, I planned the whole session, and I was so scared that whole evening. These little buggers damn look scary for sure. I decided to just do 2 and if that worked, I would then do 2 more, or perhaps even 4 more if it deemed to be like nothing...
Anyway, I did the session with nippleclamps, but I backed out. I just couldn't do it. I was too scared.
I decided to place 4 needles near my computer, the place where I also write this and usually watch porn too.
Just so I can see the needles and get used to them. One time, I grabbed one, took off the cap, placed it in position, but backed out again.
Today I decided I was going to do it. One thing I was scared off, is that if much pain on my nipples is received, it can easily give me an orgasm.
So I started to watch porn again, and I said to myself, if I see a photo where someone does needleplay, I will insert 2 while watching that photo. But the site I was on didn't seem to have any and I got impatient, so switching side I started to actually look for one rather than to enjoy the photos when I finally found a queens snake gallery.
I took out the first placed it and got scared again. Removed it again. Looked at the photo and decided I really wanted this. Holding my nipple with such small needles was hard, so I ended up just holding the sides instead. I was still very scared to push it through the skin. They say, that its best to do it quick, not slow, so its only a quick pain and then its over. I was still scared and definitely not ready to push it all the way through in one go. So I decided to just place the needle as it was going to enter and get that first pinch and stop. When I looked, I saw that the needle was getting in pretty easy without much feeling of agony.
I did feel some pain, but it was the fear that initially got me. When I got to the center of the nipple, it increased a bit, but nothing too bad, so I kept on pushing very slowly until I reached the inside of the other end of the skin which seemed to be the most painful as it was just pinching without going through. A bit of working on it and there we go... the first needle was through!!!!
I grabbed the second needle and my right nipple was now going to be pierced the same way, from top to bottom. That initial pinch was more painful, and it seemed to be more painful overall for some odd reason. Maybe I was going faster now? I don't know. It was nothing I couldn't handle, but I definitely felt when it found the inside most sensitive part as it gone through. Luckily the pain was nowhere near levels to give me an orgasm though.
Having the two in, I was happy. Felt pretty great to have accomplished something that has been on my NO list for so long.
Experienced people say that once the needle is through all pain is gone. I reflected but I do feel the needles and some mild pain, but nothing compared to the pain I had when they went through. I like how I can feel them. Means it was not for nothing.
After enjoying the 2 for a bit I decided to do the other two as well. From right to left on the left nipple and reverse for the other.
First the left nipple. For some reason, it felt more painful than when the 2nd needle went in, but again nothing I couldn't take. When I pushed the 4th needle through, it felt even more painful than the other 3, but again, nothing I couldn't take.
People suggest to skip this one for those who begin with needleplay and go one or two sizes higher. I have no experience with those, so I can't say if its true or not, but one thing is for sure, the worst thing in needleplay is simply the fact that its new.
I think its now 30 minutes since the 4 needles are in, and that feeling I had when the tacks were removed and the nipples are healing, is basically what I feel. A very gentle pain every so often. More like a burning sensation, but on the inside of my nipples where I want it to be most. Its like I have Tabasco sauce on my nipples, but it was thinned. The feeling got stronger over time, so it may start to hurt more and more in hours from now. I don't know. In fact I don't know how long I will keep them in. I like them, but I may decide to take them out soon.
Of course, taking them out will be giving me the same pleasure, so they're going out very slowly.
I really love how my nipples are giving me a sensation of: "Hey, something doesn't feel right, can you see what's going on?"
Not a pain feeling like: "Dude, urgent urgent!!!!"
So the question now becomes for me, will I do this more and perhaps in different places? Hell yeah!
Will I go to bigger needles? Dunno. Possibly in the future. Lets first work through the 100 ones I have now and see how it goes.
My next target might be my ass... XD But on second thought, that may actually be preferable to be done by someone rather than solo.
About to sign out from this post... my mind says: time to take them out. My feelings says: good this is so good... keep them in. xD
Oh wow, a somewhat sharper pain just was felt. Seems these buggers will get more painful the longer they are in as indication from my body that something may be wrong.
Feels a bit like a large splinter, but differently.
The biggest difference between things like tacks and needles, is the fact that a needle is very sharp and hollow. It pierces the skin so easily that it doesn't hurt as much. And if the needle is constantly moving even if slow, the pain is not much either. I stopped after small steps so that made the pain a bit more noticable I guess. But then again, I'm a masochist.
Yeah, time for these buggers to go out.