Hi All!
Wow! What a response! Thank you everyone for replying and the confidence to keep going. Before I get to the update, let me just answer your questions first. The quote option confuses me. So ill just reply each of you here.
Kinbaku, yes, this really is therapy for me. This thread has almost become a blog for me. And I really look forward to updating everyone about my day.
JohnES, When we decided I needed braces, there were gaps showing in my front teeth both top and bottom. So I was too far gone by this stage to get by with Invisalign retainers. Invisalign braces would have been an option, but unfortunately my insurance doesn’t cover braces as this is considered cosmetic. And I was not able to shell out maybe $3,000+ for Invisalign. So I ended up in these good old fashioned train tracks. Once I get my teeth back in place I will suggest to my orthodontist to get a Invisalign retainer as you mentioned. But as of right now, my ortho says she will permanently fix a small wire mesh to the back of my teeth which will hold it in place. Regardless of the permanent solution, I still have a long way to go. First of all, im much older than when I had braces before (I had it in my early twenties for a few years), and as an adult movement is much slower. Secondly, now that I am back in my ballgag there is a considerable amount of time that my braces are being pushed back and im reversing my progress. So I think I have quite a few years before I need to make this decision about my retainer.
Bounddosster, thank you for the encouragement. I will keep posting for sure! The neck brace most definitely feels like bondage.
Cdinbonds, its so great to hear from someone who is also in bondage in public! I live in quite a conservative town as well, so that’s why we generally drive 50-60 miles out to even experiment with this. To be honest, I am still not comfortable enough to wear anything that is clearly bondage like a leather collar. I don’t know how I would react if I got asked that question from hotel staff! I need to psych myself up for this, but hearing your story has really encouraged me to move forward. I really hope to be as brave as that some day! I love how you refer to your partner as “Mistress”. I will be discussing this with my husband as well. I don’t see him being against it.
Jenny, I can see there are over 450 reads now! Amazing! Thank you!
Shannon, Thank you for allowing me to stay here! I have actually put on some weight over the last few years, but I think even staying this size is a combination of a lot of things. Biggest contribution would be that im on my feet all day waiting tables and I walk about 3km (total) everyday to catch the bus. Anyone who waits tables knows that it is NOT easy work. Second, would be my gagging for sure. I am limited to one meal after work. No snacking while watching TV. After im gagged Im only allowed water because drooling so much can dehydrate you.
Alright, questions done, so heres the update. Today was my first day back at work after the weekend. And after going out in public twice, there was no turning back! So after much thought, my husband and I decided that the only way to secretly keep me “collared” during my time at work was to button my shirt over a collar. So we got a new collar, one that was about three quarters of an inch (so less wide than my black collar) and in a brownish/nude colour so that it wont show too obviously from under my shirt. In the first picture you can see just my collar buckled on. In the picture you can see the excess part of the strap sort of hanging loose. But my husband used a rubber band and kept it tightly stuck against the rest of the collar so that it wont bulge too obviously from under my shirt. Even if anyone noticed the bulge, we decided we would tell them that I had a spine correction needed and I was wearing whats called a Milwaukee brace. You can look it up. It usually has a metal frame that cups the bottom of the chin, but we could try and explain that it was a modified version that went around my neck. It’s a stretch, but that’s the best we could come up with.
After I wore my tie, and folded down my collar you really couldn’t tell there was anything underneath unless you looked really closely. The only difference I felt was that my collar was much further up my neck. I could feel a little pressure. Our shirt collars are also quite snug to begin with, and we normally wear it at the base of the neck. So when its moved upwards like this, it immediately starts to feel tighter.
As soon as I got into the bus I started to feel extremely self conscious! I just kept feeling like everyone could tell I was collared under my shirt! But by now there was no turning back! Even to remove it would mean I had to expose it. That would have been a seriously awkward spectacle in the bus! So I kept telling myself it was all in my head.
When I got to work it was no different. I was sure my co-workers would catch onto it. I mean they have seen me wearing this same uniform for years. And to now see it riding much higher up on my neck must be super obvious I thought. I was just waiting for one of them to say something and blow my cover! I was ready with my story about wearing a brace but I was worried that that wont fly. After about an hour of no one mentioning anything i was starting to feel like it wont be a problem, and as i predicted it wasnt.
The physical aspect was a different story. It started out easy, but after a couple of hours i started to really feel my collar. At home when i wear it i am mostly just sitting in one place. I dont do any chores around the house, my husband does them. But working in this outfit is a whole different story. I could feel the leather rubbing against my skin everytime i turned my head from side to side. After a few more hours i felt like i had a noose tightening around my neck! I was sweating a lot more than usual. Finally I had to take a minute and just went to the bathroom and washed my face and redid my makeup. Took a deep breath and went back in. When i finally got off my shift i wanted to take my collar off for the bus ride home. But i knew my husband would be really disappointed. And i was literally on the home stretch. And to be honest on the bus ride home I honestly didn’t care about anyone noticing anything anymore. And I realized people going home after a long day of work have their own problems to worry about, and are not going to care about some lady wearing a collar.
When i finally got home i was fully expecting my husband to take off my collar and put the black one on me. But, instead he preferred that i stay in my uniform. We had our down time and after dinner i was gagged as usual. I stayed in my uniform till bed time.
Tomorrow we will most likely do this again. The mental aspect of this is something I can get used to over time. The more I do it, the less I care what people will think. And the only way to break in my new collar is to wear it more often. Looking back a few days when my mouthlock was a daily occurrence, spending a day in my collar is a walk in the park. I will keep you guys updated on what happens next…
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. So that was that. If i had that tongue crib in there, when the mouthlock was added it would have just killed me. Phew!
i asked my husband if i could share some pictures here, but since all the pictures we took were A. at a cafe that could be identified and B. in my uniform which has an identifiable logo, he said it was a bad idea.
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