A next step
Posted: 13 Jul 2018, 03:51
I've been playing with chastity for the past decade or so. Sites like carlilock and then emlalock have been great. My Lady would lock the key in a safe and set a session.
Mostly I've been locked for less than a week. My all-time high score is 1 week 6 days.
And, of course, I had an emergency release method to open the safe if necessary. Not that I _needed_ it... but it was there.
Now the week before July 4th I'd set a self-locked session. My lady allowed me to be free for Independence Day. But... and this is new... she took the key and told me to lock myself the next morning. I wasn't going to see her for another 5 days.
So that's a big step for me; the key wasn't available to me. No emergency release.
I next saw her 5 days later, on the 10th. She was willing to let me free, but I told her I didn't need it. Next morning I convinced her to keep the key. And I don't expect to see her for another 10 days. Which will mean at least 15 days locked. New high score!
What I didn't expect is that this _feels_ different. With an emlalock session you get a sense of investment in the session; you may have to play games, you can see people voting on you, you can vote on others. But this... there's nothing. I'm just locked. I have no early reprieve due to luck on wheel of fortune, or friendly voters. It just is. A fact of life.
Now my Lady is going on vacation soon; because of timings it may be 3 or 4 weeks after I next see her. I kind of have a fantasy that she'll keep the key.
The problem, of course, is reality. Night time erections are still waking me up. But maybe I need a month locked up to overcome this... or maybe I'll be very sleep deprived at the end. I don't know.
I would love for her to keep me locked while she's away. But I don't know if it's a good idea.
Mostly I've been locked for less than a week. My all-time high score is 1 week 6 days.
And, of course, I had an emergency release method to open the safe if necessary. Not that I _needed_ it... but it was there.
Now the week before July 4th I'd set a self-locked session. My lady allowed me to be free for Independence Day. But... and this is new... she took the key and told me to lock myself the next morning. I wasn't going to see her for another 5 days.
So that's a big step for me; the key wasn't available to me. No emergency release.
I next saw her 5 days later, on the 10th. She was willing to let me free, but I told her I didn't need it. Next morning I convinced her to keep the key. And I don't expect to see her for another 10 days. Which will mean at least 15 days locked. New high score!
What I didn't expect is that this _feels_ different. With an emlalock session you get a sense of investment in the session; you may have to play games, you can see people voting on you, you can vote on others. But this... there's nothing. I'm just locked. I have no early reprieve due to luck on wheel of fortune, or friendly voters. It just is. A fact of life.
Now my Lady is going on vacation soon; because of timings it may be 3 or 4 weeks after I next see her. I kind of have a fantasy that she'll keep the key.
The problem, of course, is reality. Night time erections are still waking me up. But maybe I need a month locked up to overcome this... or maybe I'll be very sleep deprived at the end. I don't know.
I would love for her to keep me locked while she's away. But I don't know if it's a good idea.