I've been looking around for some months on this site and since it gave me back the desire to do some very simple scenarios after about 18 years of pause, i decided to register.
The reason for the long pause is that, 17 years ago, i found a beautiful girl and fell in love, we got married and still are together. Unfortunately i never dared to tell her about my darker (as some would call it) interests.
I tried a few times to bring it up but her reactions were far from curious. I didn't had the guts to insist, so i let it be.
Before that i had been a great fan of self bondage for a lot of years.
If i remember right it started at a very early age even before the onset of puberty. I remember that i would bound myself in my bed in the evening and that i liked it in some way.
Then, when i reached puberty, the connection between being bound and what feelings awoke, stared to make sense. This must have been around 11 or 12 years old.
Since then and until i was about 29 years old i did some basic things and very basic scenarios.
Now, since last year my wife is attending some courses and that leaves me alone at home for 4 days or even a week. In that time i regained a taste for some play.
It started with a cheap butt plug and then some ropes that i found around the house. Very fast i discovered that the basic things where just a doorstep to something more.
With the internet being a big source of information i soon got the old desire back.
So this week i've been alone whole week and i can tell you it was a blast. I went out to buy ropes and rings, used them almost every day and eventually (today) i bought myself a very nice butt plug with remote control (that only and the thoughts with it arouse me) and a vibrator with power cord.
I tried it almost immediately in a scenario (which i will post in the right section) and i'm in another world....
This is a part in my life that i have missed for years and years and i'm so relieved to have found it back.
i'm glad to be here.
Hold on tight
